It still catches me off guard when another phase of grief approaches. At first I ignore it, push it to the back of my mind. But eventually it consumes me. Gearing up to re-do this room was just that. Eight months of preparing for this change. That morning was hard. But after crying it out and talking with the one person I should have been talking to the entire time but wasn't, I was ready...
Ready to once again, say Goodbye to the dreams that once were, dreams of rocking Zoey to sleep, playing with her on the floor of her room, listening to her giggle, watching her smile and hearing her say those four precious words, I love you mommy.
but also ready...
Ready and excited to say Hello to the hopes and dreams that have already become.
Welcome to Jax's Room.
3 comments:
It turned out beautifully! I was praying for you during your weekend of bedroom work, I hope that your heart was a bit lighter because of it. We will all remember that special little life and now we can rejoice in Jax's new life as well. You guys did a great job, Love all the special little touches.
It must have been so difficult to do, but it looks wonderful. How great to have that message to Zoey beneath it all, just like your love for her laid the foundation for all the rest of your children.
Our neighbor brought out her baby yesterday wearing an outfit I'd handed down to her that was Ellery and Olivia's--it took my breath away a bit to see it, even though Clara had worn it and it was right for it to be enjoyed by other small people. So surprising how those little moments sneak up on you in the grief journey, even when you've come so far.
xoxo to all of you!
K
the room turned out beautifully.. you are such an amazing mom and woman, thanks for sharing this with us all....
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