When we had Zoey almost 6 years ago we were given a book entitled, "When Saying Hello Means Goodbye". The title has always saddened my heart. When we had Jax, we decided that Zoey's and Eva's room would become his.... Eventually...
It still catches me off guard when another phase of grief approaches. At first I ignore it, push it to the back of my mind. But eventually it consumes me. Gearing up to re-do this room was just that. Eight months of preparing for this change. That morning was hard. But after crying it out and talking with the one person I should have been talking to the entire time but wasn't, I was ready...
Ready to once again, say Goodbye to the dreams that once were, dreams of rocking Zoey to sleep, playing with her on the floor of her room, listening to her giggle, watching her smile and hearing her say those four precious words, I love you mommy.
but also ready...
Ready and excited to say Hello to the hopes and dreams that have already become.
Welcome to Jax's Room.